“life will be better in spring”

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heyy all...
2daii...
tho no-one realised...
my eyes...
they were wet...
i trie my best 2 hold it in...
but...
god dammit!
its hrd...
:(
my paper had a dot of wetness...
gosh...
i dunno know why i am soo emotional...
sometimes it annoys me...
but i guess it feel gud wen i let out all my feelings...
but the thing is...
when i start its so hr 2 stop...
until no more water can come out...
its all gone...
an then the next day it refils
and the day after that...
and the day after that...
and so on...
i will keep going on...
its just that...
maths lessons are soo FKN depressing now...
its so hrd 2 think abt anything wen there is water n the brim of ur eyes...
cozz ur thinking of all those ppl u love...
but ur quite sure they dont luvv you back...
o well...
anywayz...
byee g2g...
dont know wat ima do now...
sleep...
let out more water...
or maybe just block all the fked up pplz on my contact list...
evry1 i am pissed at...
nah won't do any of those things...
i'll just try and forget everything that happened 2dayy...
except for wat happened at epping...
abt how i suddenly lost all my tryst in you...
just by one small slip up...
anywayz...
to you: "normally its bye 4 now, not 4eva...well this time i'm hoping its...bye 4eva...not for now..."
leave my life

S2...shiv...<3