“life will be better in spring”

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heyy all...
wat a CRAP last day of school...
jeez...
u bitch abt me soo fkn much!!!
i mean c'mon!!!
srsly...
if u really luvv bitching abt people so much...
that try not 2 do it in front of their face...
its really hurtful...
u probably dont know how it feels...
i could let u know how it feels...
but i am not THAT mean...
so in wont...
be hapy...
not a bitch
PLEASE
FKN HELL!!!
btw...
i think that was abt me...
that line hurt me so much...
i already know all that sorta stuff...
no need to rub i tin...
it really hurts...
plz don't do it again...
i fkn beg you DON'T FUCKING DO THAT EVER AGAIN!!!
please...
byee...
g2g now...

S2...shiv...<3

heyy all...
2daii...
tho no-one realised...
my eyes...
they were wet...
i trie my best 2 hold it in...
but...
god dammit!
its hrd...
:(
my paper had a dot of wetness...
gosh...
i dunno know why i am soo emotional...
sometimes it annoys me...
but i guess it feel gud wen i let out all my feelings...
but the thing is...
when i start its so hr 2 stop...
until no more water can come out...
its all gone...
an then the next day it refils
and the day after that...
and the day after that...
and so on...
i will keep going on...
its just that...
maths lessons are soo FKN depressing now...
its so hrd 2 think abt anything wen there is water n the brim of ur eyes...
cozz ur thinking of all those ppl u love...
but ur quite sure they dont luvv you back...
o well...
anywayz...
byee g2g...
dont know wat ima do now...
sleep...
let out more water...
or maybe just block all the fked up pplz on my contact list...
evry1 i am pissed at...
nah won't do any of those things...
i'll just try and forget everything that happened 2dayy...
except for wat happened at epping...
abt how i suddenly lost all my tryst in you...
just by one small slip up...
anywayz...
to you: "normally its bye 4 now, not 4eva...well this time i'm hoping its...bye 4eva...not for now..."
leave my life

S2...shiv...<3

heyy all...
i have trusted you from the very beginning of yr 7...
we really had some sorta bond going on...
and one little trip up wiped it all away...
i shall tell u nothing wat so-ever now...
u tell her lies abt me...
i told you something...
and you told her something TOTALLY different...
that really pisses me off!
and now...
she don't trust me...
>.>
srsly...
i ain't gonna trust anyone but y+jenwai now...
i told you not 2 tell any1...
and guess wat you do...
you tell EVERYONE!!!
just piss off...
and leave my life...
ok?
just
FUCK OFF!!!
u will never be trusted by me again!!!
ARG!!!
gonna go and tell lauren evrything now...
she always makes me feel better...
bye!
D<

S2...shiv...<3

heyy all...
i feel really bad coz...
ima admit...
i did it too...
sorry..
dont forgive ur choice...
but not as much as her...
sorry awesome person...
i guess everyone does it tho...
i know wat u said and did on train 2daii...
i totally agree with that...
she can be really annoying...
but...
she is a friend...
u gotta accpet...
and anyway...
the one she did it 2 doesnt like her anywayy...
soo d/w too much...
(:
anywayy...
the escalator was HILARIOUS 2day...
elisa was like hey 2 one of her enemies...
coz her enemies escalator stopped...
and her enemy was like...
(wat i interpreted from the expressions)
#1. wow! someone finally said hi 2 me!
#2. omg! i know that person!
#3. fk her...i am such a fatso and i hve 2 walk up the fkn escalator...mann just FK HER!!!
#4. i shall get her bakk...
while these facials were going on...
i attempet to chuck a squashed muffin at her...
but missed my an inch...
but it was god to see her stumble wen i thru it...
mde me laff in my head...
(:
i hvent done that in a while
C:
omg!
ily you guys soo much...
J+R+E+M+R+C...<3

byee g2g finish my pb...
cyaa

S2...shiv...<3

heyy all...
nothing that interesting 2daii...
umm...
music: we did clappingmusic...helping carissa+rach mke their clapping thingmo cozz i won be here...
science: crap score...not gonna tell any1 else...
english: fun? ionno...jenwai mkes me happy...C:
geo: kept stealing fi's pencil cases...so much fun!
C:
a few thing i learnt...
some mde my day...
sum i didnt like...
#1. bec never listens 2 me when i am talking...>.>
#2. she is still pissed at me...):
#3. i am officialy pissed now...D<
#4. normo's are the worst pplz ever...well the ones that we don't like...;)
#5. we (rach+crissa+me+any1 else that wants 2 join in) are gonna get 'em bak (:
anywayz...
onli one that mde my dayy...
all the others NOT GOOD!
if i am an angered person 2morow...
i apologise...
byee g2g now...
(:

S2...shiv...<3

heyy all...
um hi...
my life is weird atm...
going 2 india in a wk?
school is weird...
my friends are awesome...<3
um...
i'll go now...
cozz it's late...
soo byee
C:

S2...shiv...<3

heyy all...
this is actually abt mondayy the 9th of november...
ok that particular dayy i had 2 walk 2 the bus stop...
cozz my dad went 2 work earlier than usual...
as i was walking...
i hear footsteps behind me...
i turn around see this really weird, bulky guy...
with long hair...
i get really scared so i start walking faster...
and then i hear a huge THUMP and so i turn around agen and see this guy on the floor...
and he says 2 me...
"HELP ME!"
an i say...
"no!"
and i ran as fast as i could 2 the bus stop...
i was soo fking scared...
anywayz...
so 2daii...
by bro was coming home he see' the same guy...
and guess wat he's doing?!?!?!?!?
STEALING SOMEBODY'S RED GARBAGE BIN!!!
i mean i feel so sorry for those pplz...
my bro sayz he has seen that guy around telopea a lot...
and so he knows where he lives...
soo they might tell the cops 2morow...
i'm soo scared 2 walk to and from my bus stop now...
:S
g2g now...
byee

S2...shiv...<3

heyy all...
i was playing with a centipede...
and then it fell on my foot...
and then i screamed at the top of my lungs...
byee

S2...shiv...<3

heyy all...
GOD DAMMIT!!! honey is sooo yumm...
its sweet and really REALLY tasty...
yummmmmmmmmm...
short post...
just wanted 2 tell u...
if u dont know wat 2 get me 4 my b'dayy next yr...
honey will do...
;)
:P
gonna go hve some honey...
(:
byee

S2...shiv...<3

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heyy jenwai...
this is for you...
OMG! ur soo awesome...
u understand me more than anyone else that goes 2 hornsby...
i know in carlo we werent very close...
but now we are...
so very close...
i feel so happy wen i am around u...
ur weird jks mke me laff...
yes others might think they r lame...
but i dont...
well sometimes i do...but thats beside the point:P
you mke me feel so safe...
and NOT lonely...
and i still rememba that gay dream i had abt u...
tell no1...
k?
ILYSM!!!
ty 4 being my awesome friend...
just remember...
i will always be there for you...
just like u've always been there for me...
i need a shoulder to cry on...
i need a brain 2 tell evrything 2...
i need a real friend...
all of these things...
equals to...
jenwai...<3
tysm...
ILYSM...<3

S2...shiv...<3

this is real...
not a fairytale...
(:
<3

heyy all...
ok first thing is first...
I'M SORRY FOR BEING AN EMOTIONAL BITCH!!!
IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT WE CAN'T BE FRIENDS!!!
BECAUSE I WAS, AM AND ALWAYS WILL BE AN EMOTIONAL BITCH!!!
I CAN'T HELP IT, IT'S JUST ME!!!
ok...
that felt gud...
now my gay day:
science:ok...
music:ok...
maths:well lets not talk abt that...k?
p.e:had a gr8 time...checked my phone...got some really weird txts from big nose guy...
replied wat i thought was true...txted him l8r...no1 knows wat i said...except 4 me+him...
meh...
anywayz...
bak on topic...
train:sat with bec...+ elena afta a while...
bus:boring...
home:tv...4got abt maths h/w...STUFF YOU MR MARSHALL!!!
bed:blogging...

gnite...

w8 nts 2 a few friends...(rach+elisa+marge+carissa+bec)
rach+marge: ILY guys...awesome pplz...<3(awesome besties+awesome cuzzies;D)
elisa:i luvv u 2...U OWE ME A HUG...(: <3
carissa:I JUV you...(our little jk)ijy...<3
and last but definitely NOT least...
bec:OMG! i cud sayy so much abt u...but i needa sleep so i'll keep it short...
ILYSM! sometimes i am a bitch...i know...but ty 4 still being here 4 me...
ily...<3 <3 <3 <3 <3

gnite evry1...

S2...shiv...<3

heyy all...
agen...
ima gonna blog abt 2dayy...
ok...
i seemed 2 hve 4gotten already...
o well...
just talk abt wat i remember then...
umm...
prd1: music exam...
prd2: private study
prd3: private study (mr marshall fkn saw this thing i wrote in my english bk abt luvving sum1...grrrrrrr D<)
lunch: stole margarets bag...LOTS OF FUN!!!
prd4: english viewing...not the easiest...=S
train: becca:"y dont u just kich him in the thing"
me+rach+carissa:"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!"
then abt 2 get off at epping... becca: "lets FASTER RUN!!!"
me+rach(not sure abt carissa)..."HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!"
goodness me bec...U ARE ONE FUNNY LITTLE CHICKEN!!!
:D
luvv y'all...
byee

S2...shiv...<3

o and adding 2 the badd things abt u... in the blog b4 this one...
u mke me wanna crush my awesomely close friend...
:(

heyy all...
i am officially the weirdest person EVER!!!

bad things abt u:
ur nose is 2 big!!!
ur friend looks like a doof that has never slept!!
ur nose is wayy wayy 2 big!!!
my friends think ur ugly!!!

bad thing(s) abt me:
i fell for u...
and now i cant fkn get bak up!!!

byee...

S2...shiv...<3

heyy all...
my new blog...
i luv it i hope u do 2...
i luvv u...<3
i'm onli blogging coz rachel told me 2...
and i'm very VERY bored...
so yea...
nuthing much 2 blog abt tho...
and this wk until thursday i'm prob not gonna blog...
cozz of stupid yearlies...
:(
my dance performance went well...
were the potato jackets any gud?
and did u guys like the banana smoothie?
umm well nothing much 2 sayy...
sooo bye i guess...
byee

S2...shiv...<3

heyy all...
gosh!
this is all 4 u #3
ok.
i believe that...
#1 shud stop sucking up to #2...
cox #2 belongs to #3
:D
byee now...

S2...shiv...<3

heyy all...
agen...
just had 2 sayy sumthing...
atm...the bad memory gang consits of:
bec+marge+me=BAD MEMORY GANG!
g2g now...
byee

S2...shiv...<3

heyy all...
it's bin a while since i've posted...
and this post is MAINLY dedicated 2 U...
u dun know how it feels 2 be in my place...
wen ur pissed at me...
u alwaiiz exlude me...
and mke me feel down...
ok i admit i'm not a normal person...
but its ont nice 2 say it 2 my face is it?
it really hurts...
and ty u know hu u r...
u kept my humiliation down...
that really meant a lot 2 me...
my respect 4 u has gone up by a mile...
i luvv u...
anywaiiz...
bakk 2 wat i was talking abt b4...
if ur gonna be like that evrytime ur pissed...
then just dun be my friend...
u talk 2 me wen u hve no1 else 2 talk 2...
but the thing is...
if i was ur enemy...
my school life wud be a living hell!
cozz evrytime i wud go 2 school i wud get excluded...
ganged up on...
and that hurts me...
i still wanna be ur friend...
but ur expectaions of me r so high and hrd 2 reach...
u r bias...
very, VERY bias...
anywaiiz...
i'll go now...
i dun wanna blab abt U anymore...
byee

S2...shiv...<3

p.s marge remid me 2 give u that 'present'...
<3 you